So, we go through mountains and valleys with our faith our trust and our hope, I am officially in a valley. I feel lost although I know that the Lord is with me every step I take. I know he feels my pain and that he cares for me more than anyone could, which gives me so much comfort right now because I feel like no one really cares. I don’t want to be here. Why? Seems like a good question to ask for all of this chaos going on. I can’t deal with people screaming or raising their voices to me. I can’t tolerate it right now. I am so on edge. I feel like I am on a rollercoaster and I feel like I just went down one of those super steep hills and I threw up my stomach and I feel empty and sick inside. I want to get off the roller coaster but it keeps going and it’s going faster every time we go around. There are other people on this roller coaster, but they are enjoying it, the up’s and downs of life but I don’t want to be here it seems like I am down too often and when I am up, it doesn’t last long enough before I feel empty again.
Lord, fill me up with you. I need your spirit to fill me, make me an empty vessel so that I can be filled with everything of you. Erase my mind of things I don’t need to think about, let me cast my cares on you because I know lord that you care for me. Thank you for your love, Lord Jesus, thank you that I can feel it as I am writing this. Lord, take my tears and turn them to smiles, to joy, to praise for your name. Make me more like you, I need you Jesus. Amen.
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