(understanding)without(words)

Thank you Jesus for Susie Ortiz!
For so long now I have felt so misunderstood. If you read through these past things I have written.it could be understood. Tonight at church I saw Susie. She saw me. She understood. And for once since I have been home I have felt understood. without saying anything, she knew everything I was feeling. She told me not to be afraid of anything, she told me that they would be praying for me no matter what and that they wouldn’t stop, and that I was an example to even her. I guess some things I just needed to hear. But most of all what I saw in Susie tonight was sincerity. I’ve been looking for it for so long. I saw it in her eyes when she got tears and couldn’t talk. I felt it in the way she hugged me. This wasn’t fake. I can’t tell you how many hugs I have gotten since coming home in the middle of October. This is the first one that has been real. I couldn’t help but cry myself. Happy tears.a burden had been lifted. I haven’t cared to explain to anyone what I have felt because no one was sincere. I learned tonight that you can’t always see a sincere person but you can feel it. I’ve wanted love, but that’s not what I’ve needed. I’ve been looking for it so desperately when all I needed was for someone to look me in the eyes and say “I know you’re not ok”.
I think I’ll remember this forever.
PROVERBS 25:20